is between light and day

you will have to follow a path; someone else’s first path. That is okay to do. Follow a path until you make a path, by any means.
Don’t fret or daly over the chatters of most internet artists, since they are busy trying on shoes at the trailhead

the first reactions fall into three styles. Flee. Cover. Attack.
Those who flee are easy targets. They die. Those who cover, as long as they seek a target, survive. Those who attack, draw fire, probably to die, but they give those under cover a chance to engage a target.

Advice: drop, find, fire.

You may come home to teach others at ft Bragg